so today is the day my friends. i step into the unknown world of throwing all of my thoughts into one place where i can ultimately be judged by the world. not that it bothers me, its really nothing new, i guess its just some what exciting that i’ll finally get around to doing something during my free time at work.

i’ve had a lot of different things on my mind lately. my husband and i just bought a new house and we are in the process of finishing painting and what not. i’m really satisfied with the effort i’m putting into it, i really didn’t think i’d be this excited about it. i guess it all comes with time. there’s so many things i want to do and get done right away but it seems like its taking forever to get anything done. either that or we really don’t have the money considering our mortgage is due on march 1st.

work is beginning to get dreadfully boring and slow. while most people would find this a blessing, i keep finding it as a curse. i’ve worked here for almost 3 years and it never gets any better. like most people, i’m stuck in a dead end position with no advancement oppurtunity and really a horrible payrate for the amount of work i should be doing. the main problem is that with the type of business i work for its basically seasonal as construction usually doesn’t pickup until spring and fall. so in winter and summer we are almost sitting ducks. the days are slow and long and full of nothing. and its not like i can talk with anyone. i work in an office alone, so i’m stuck staring at walls and starting blogs.

my one frustration thats been nagging me since last year is losing all this weight i’ve managed to gain the past few years. i was doing rather well last year losing. i think i had lost up to 20 pounds at one point. but slowly it all starts to creep up again to where now i’ve gained back about 15.5 of those pounds. ah the vicious cycle of weight loss and gain. i did however get a treadmill over the holidays which is now in the house in its own special room. i’m hoping thats some inspiration to actually meet my weight loss goal this year. i want to at least lose 30 pounds before my one year anniversary. that would be a dream if i could just believe in it.

i plan on writing a short novella sometime in the near future. It will probably come in bits and pieces on my blog in its own special category. again just random things that come to mind when i feel like there’s nothing else to do.